Chiaroscos

[Thursday, October 05, 2006]

I was too stressed out
today. During the break
in between papers
I did revision for bio .
Ernestine was there,
and later Yiwen.
I was so fed up over
bio that i started laughing.
weird huh??yeah.
I laughed and laughed
and laughed until
I cried.I didn't even
know whether i was
crying cause of stress
or cause i was laughing
so hard.
and.the revision was useless
anyway.

Transport in mammals only
came out in only 3 qns!!!
Out of the ENTIRE freakin
paper just 3 DARN QNS.
I spent HOURS mugging
for that chapter!!!and
respiration.I had to pick
as the essay qns cause
i didn't know how to answer
the other one on digestive
system.='(
IM GONNA FAIL BIO.

Oh!and some teachers
should go for english lessons.
"Okay girls, only you now
are allowed not to open
your question papers."
like What The???
I didn't even
understand what her
instuction meant!?!?!

I felt much better after
my midyear exams than
now=(...mebbe i should
quit studying.I remembered
stuff so much better then!!
Now im like....
ARGH I STUDIED BUT
IT DIDN'T COME OUT!!!!!

AND.i got fat cause of EOYS!
i was so stressed out over
my bio exam cause the stuff
i crammed so hard for didn't
come out..and the stuff i skipped
did!!!!!
so when i got home i couldn't
stop eating cause i was so
sad over my bio and i forgot
how much i'd eaten.
AND my grandma brought
snowskin mooncakes home!!

I've been addicted to them
since last year i think..sigh..
and no one else in my family
likes the double egg yolk ones
except me.
so naturally i'll eat them!!
plus,they're the perfect comfort
food! there were 2 big ones
with the yolks so i'd eat them
since noone else likes yolk.
LoL.i just had dinner,starfruit,
orange juice,and i gorge myself
on mooncakes.i'm mad.
IM NOT GONNA STUDY ANYMORE.

WAIT.I am.ohmygoodness.
I just received this email..
and the verse is
Heb 12:11
"We don't enjoy being disciplined.
It always seems
to cause more pain than joy.
But later on,
those who learn from
that discipline have peace
that comes from
doing what is right."

Im trying to trust God
but its just so hard..=(

Dear Lord,
I felt better when
i didn't study
during the mid-years.
I'm feeling so
stressed and i
just don't know why.
why is it that
when i try to do
better i just mess
everything up?
In my midyrs
I just left everything
up to you. I didn't
do too well but that
was my fault.but
i still got As.
Right now i'm
messing up
everything i do
including the
subjects that are easier.
Am i supposed to
quit studying?
tt doesn't make sense.
or am i to quit worrying?
but when i do
i don't have
any motivation
to study.
dear Lord,
please tell me what
i should do.
In the Lord Jesus'
most precious
name i pray,
Amen.

"Chasing Cars."
Chorus:
If i lie here
if i just lay here
would you lie with me
and just forget the world.

posted by: tears*falling[love involves care&inner strength.] * 7:29 PM

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